You'll Never Hear ME Say "Whatever Floats Your Boat" Because That's Just Plain Silly.

I have listened to a bit of Flyleaf lately. And pretty much this song is amazing. I love it so much!

All Around Me - Flyleaf

My hands are searching for You
My arms are outstretched towards You
I feel You on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for You

The fire rising through my being
Burning, I'm not used to seeing You

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel You all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And You whisper You love me
And I begin to fade into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with You
I am alone, and they are too, with You

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel You all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see You

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel You all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand
I give it to You
Now You own me
All I am
You said You would never leave me
I believe You
I believe

I can feel You all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed

This morning during my devotional, I was reading Psalm 5, and it was just so amazing that I had to write it down in my journal because it spoke to me so much! I was looking for a passage on guidance or the Lord's will in our lives or something of that nature, and flipping through the Psalms, and the header on Psalm 5, at least in my Bible, is "A prayer for guidance". So obviously I had to stop and read it. AND it was amazing. So here it is. Be prepared to soak in the amazingness.

Psalm 5 - A prayer for guidance

1 Give ear to my words, O Lord,
Consider my meditation.
2 Give heed to the voice of my cry,
My King and my God,
For to You I will pray.
3 My voice You shall hear in the morning, O Lord;
In the morning I will direct it to You,
And I will look up.

4 For You are not a God who takes pleasure in wickedness,
Nor shall evil dwell with You.
5 The boastful sahll not stand in Your sight;
You hate all workers of iniquity.
6 You shall destroy those who speak falsehood;
The Lord abhors the bloodthirsty and decietful man.

7 But as for me, I will come into Your house in the multitude of Your mercy;
In fear of You I will worship toward Your holy temple.
8 Lead me, O Lord, in Your righteousness because of my enemies;
Make Your way straight before my face.

9 For there is no faithfulness in their mouth;
Their inward part is destruction;
Their throat is an open tomb;
They flatter with their tongue.
10 Pronounce them guilty, O God!
Let them fall by thier own counsels;
Cast them out in the multitude of their transgressions,
For they have rebelled against You.

11 But let all those rejoice who put their trust in You;
Let them ever shout for joy, because You defend them;
Let those also who love Your name
Be joyful in You.
12 For You, O Lord, will bless the righteous;
With favor You will surround him as with a shield.

It's just so awesome to me that we can put our trust in Him and know that He will defend us! We can rejoice in His love because we know that He is in control and He will take care of us. He is directing our paths and if we will only pay attention to Him, He will "make His way straight before our face"! Isn't that splendid?

Today while I was in town with my mum, I saw a car that had "JUST DIVORCED" painted in large capital letters on the back window. Isn't that so sad? I literally almost cried. How horrible! What is this world coming to? Because I am here to tell you, if I was ever so terribly unfortunate as to suffer through a divorce (I hope and pray that never, ever, EVER happens, but...), you can be quite sure that I will not be proclaiming it to the world by painting it on the back of my car! I was quite perturbed.

I got a new hat. It is not as crazy and spontaneous as might have been desired, but there are always other hats. And for the present, this one is nice and grey and has a bill that will not obstruct my peripheral vision and will keep my noggin quite toasty while I'm at the snow. Plus it has two little grommets on the bill that just look cool. Maybe I'll pin a bow on it or something. Or not. In any event, it will serve the purpose quite nicely, as far as hats go. Altogether a quite satisfactory hat.

Hopefully you were not bothered by the length of this post, with the song lyrics and the whole Psalm and all, but if you were, I'm not sorry. Because this is my blog, and if you don't like it, well, then, maybe you shouldn't read it.

I believe I've said before that I don't like compromise? That saying, "Whatever floats your boat," is one of the most ridiculous I have heard yet. I would never say that. It's quite silly, in my opinion.

In any event, 5 a.m. is approaching rather too quickly for my taste, and so I shall depart for the realm of slumber.

Everyone Needs a Crazy and Spontaneous Hat.

This morning, in church, I learned that today was the Super Bowl. I don't know how I could not have known that. I feel very detached from society. Not that that's a bad thing. I'm still not sure who won. But whatever. It's not like I care.

I have a new snowboard, because my old one was quite a bit too large for me, since Da bought it for me in 6th grade, when we still thought I was going to grow. It's black with pink detailing. It's pretty awesome. It's so tiny though! Haha. But I guess it fits me. :) I like it, anyways.

I want to get a new hat for the next time we go snowboarding. I don't have a cool hat. I think I need one. Maybe one with earflaps. Or some fur. Or something crazy. I feel like I should have a crazy, spontaneous hat. It just seems like something everyone should have. Like I'm slightly deprived, because I don't have one. I think I must remedy this situation.

I was called a 'twerp' today, for the first time. By a 3rd grader. A very funny 3rd grader, who couldn't pronounce his "R's". You can imagine how 'twerp' sounded, coming from him. I was hard-pressed to keep myself from laughing in his face. Pretty hilarious.

Our class was actually normal-sized tonight. Anne and I had expected a small class because of Super Bowl but we had seven kids, as usual. When the kids started getting a bit crazy, Anne told them I had a machete. Trevor argued that we said before that Zak had the machete. So then Anne told him that I had Zak's machete, and so I had to "explain" how Zak had loaned me his machete so I could guard the children, "just in case". Of course then they wanted to know "just in case" of what? So Anne said it was to guard them, in case any dragons invaded. Then we discussed dragon invasions for a while, then we were back to the machete, then we discussed how old and decrepit Anne and I would be when our 3rd graders were in Junior High.

And Trevor colored these awesome pictures for Anne and I. It's a battle scene, with lots of arrows protruding from armor and bloody swords and fallen men. It's pretty great. He tucked a little note into the envelope too, that said, "God bless thy". He meant for it to say "God bless thee," but he spelled it wrong. So funny! My envelope was addressed to "Catty". ;) Hahaha! It was pretty great.

Friends Do Not Have All Things In Common. "Anyone Who Says Differently Is Selling Something."

That was quoted from the infamous Princess Bride. Well, not really infamous. More like... renouned. :)

My calendar has a friend quote for every day... Today it had a quote from Plato. It said, "Friends have all things in common." And I think that's just stupid. Why should friends have to have all things in common? That's just ridiculous. Because I am here to tell you that I do not have all things in common with any one of my friends. And I have amazing friends. So that's ridiculous. All respect to Plato, but it must've been one of his bad days when he said that one. Ahem.

At the moment, I am listening to Thousand Foot Krutch. I really like them. A lot. They are doing a concert here in a few days. I want to go really badly. I hope that I can. Because that would be just awesome.

Writing is pretty much my passion. Besides music, that is. I just realized again how much I like it. I wish I had more time to indulge. Haha! I suppose if I didn't spend so much time on Facebook I probably would have more time. Maybe I should work on that.

An Epic Fail

So, I tried recording myself singing and playing guitar today, for a music project for school. Normally for music I take a picture of myself with my guitar and write a paragraph about how I go to guitar class every week and play guitar at home most every day, etcetera. This method is very convenient for me, being as lazy as I am, but unfortunately, my E.S. gets tired of the same ol', same ol'... on occaision. So this time I decided to mix it up a little bit, to make her happy, and do a recording of myself. Unfortunately, I have a really good mic, but no editting software whatsoever, and a recorder that will only record 60 seconds at a time. Ugh. I have two words for my attempt, and they are these:

epic fail.

Yeah. So, that was an interesting portion of my day.

The remainder of my day consisted of - (...drumroll please...) - homework! Hallelujah!... Not. Story of my life.

Um, and basically, I have a really boring and also lame weekend ahead of me. So... yeah. And after that is, ugh, Monday. Blah.

I think I shall do some novel-writing tonight. I feel in that sort of mood.

Procrastinating is Fun Until You Have to Do the Buttload of Dishes Still Left in the Sink

I am constantly realizing how absolutely blessed I am! I have often taken my friends for granted, and then over and over again I see how awesome it is that I have such amazing, solid friends who are always there for me, encouraging me and being hilarious and saying exactly what I need them to say, and struggling with me through trials, and triumphing with me when I get past them. And then laughing with me when we look back on them and realize how silly they were in the first place. They're just awesome! I don't know what I'd do without them.

I have realized that I am in great danger of becoming one of the obsessive people that I can't stand. This, as you may realize, is a great predicament. For one to bother oneself with one's own actions is a very complicated situation, and not one I should like to endure for any length of time, whatsoever. The reason I am in danger of becoming one of these obsessive people is because of all of the silly fan pages on Facebook. Apparently, many people have no life, and so they sit around at home and make silly fan pages. Some of the titles of these pages happen to be quite amusing. I never venture to actually look at the page itself. I just look at the title, and click the 'become a fan' button, and there my obsession begins. And it has resulted in exactly 370 pages that I have become a fan of. Slightly ridiculous, wouldn't you agree?

Right now I am procrastinating. There is a sinkful of dishes in the kitchen waiting for me to get off my lazy bum and do them... and here I sit, blogging. And Facebooking. I must be a terrible oldest child. I probably shame my family's name with my laziness. I'm almost embarrassing myself... Maybe I should do the dishes... No! I hate dishes. I will finish my post and then maybe I will get to dishes...

Pretty much guitar class was really fun today. The funnest it's been in a long time. We were soloing... and it was awesome. It actually made sense today.

One thing I can't understand is why people think it's less...bad, I guess... to use a bad word in the form of an acronym, rather than just saying it. It's still a bad word, okay?! It's kind of crazy, like people who I really don't think would normally say words like that spout off acronyms with a bunch of cuss words in them like it's no big deal... I don't get it. Grrrrr...

The Fray is pretty much awesome. And yeah.

A Pet-Hair-Less Sofa

I must, like so many others, attribute my absence from Blogger to my newfound obsession with Facebook. It's a very addicting site. Beware.

My only problem with Facebook is that it's way too impersonal. It's fun to know more specifically what people have been up to, but the status updates are shorter than blog posts and less detailed and there's much less personality involved. If you ask me.

So here I am, on Blogger, once again. I know you've all missed me. All you people who are reading this. Which is probably no one. Except Annie and my madre and Maci. Who, of course, are not 'no one'. They are rather some of the most important people ever. In my little world, that is.

What would be ridiculous would be for me to try and cover everything that has happened to me in the last several months, since I have blogged. So I will not. I will start with now.

I'm not really into baring my soul on the internet. It bothers me. But I will say that lately, God has been doing a lot of work in my life. The past few months I've been having a really hard time with some stuff (Haha, 'stuff'. Like I said, I'm not into baring my soul online), and I've been just struggling a lot with my walk, just wanting to grow closer to God but not being able to. Honestly, I think I was preventing myself from growing because I was limiting Him. Because He can do anything, and my attitude was, "Oh, God, if You do this, then I'll..." etcetera, and really that's not the way it's supposed to work. He's in control. And it just took me a while to wake up and realize that. He's just been showing me a lot of things about myself and about other people. Things that I think He's been trying to show me for a long time, but I was kind of closing myself off to what He was trying to tell me. Because I wasn't trusting that what He had in mind for me was better than the plans I had for myself. Even though it is. It's way better. I can already tell. Ha! Anyway, it's been really cool because I've been just so stoked on Him lately and all that He's doing in my life and how absolutely faithful He is. He is absolutely everything that I need in my life. He loves me with a steadfast love and that is so awesome.

Today, I led worship for Team 56, as I do every week. The only difference between this week and every other week is that this week, I messed up most heinously right in the middle of my first song. It was terribly lame. The really sweet thing about it was, when I finished the song, all the kids clapped for me. This may not seem particularly significant, until I say that they never clap. They never have, not once. And so for them to clap after I'd just blown it was really pretty awesome of them. It made me feel not so lame, for screwing up and everything. I love those kids. That was pretty much the highlight of my day.

The rest of my day was spent doing homework. From this day spent doing homework, I have learned one thing, and it is this: chemistry is from the devil. Can I get an amen? It's a good thing I'm getting A's, because if I was getting lame grades in a class that I hate as much as I hate this one, I would have a coniption fit. No joke. I would just die, I think. Because I hate bad grades, about as much as I hate chemistry.

I also hate cats. They are evil. I do not hate dogs. But I have recently decided that I shall never have a dog of my own. At least not until I gain some sense of responsibility. This is because I like dogs, but I do not like the responsibility of caring for them. I like the responsibility of caring for children, and myself, but not dogs. They are too inanimate. They also are too unresponsive. I like to care for persons or beings who will respond to my care of them, other than barking at me, or rolling around on the floor. That's just annoying. I have decided that I am just not a pet person. So I will probably not own any pets, later on in life. Therefore, you need never fear getting pet hair on you when you sit on MY sofa. Isn't that a comforting thought?

At the present, I am counting down the days until two particular dates:

1) February 18, when I will be eligible to upgrade my cell phone and I can trash this crappy lame one that I have and get a new texting phone. Preferably with a touch screen. I'm thinking LG Xenon. But we'll see. And,

2) April 23, when I will turn 16 years old, and will not be able to do anything more exciting than I can do right now. I wonder why 16 is supposed to be such a milestone, when nothing even happens when you turn 16. I can't even go get a Blockbuster card for Heaven's sake! I suppose if I had gotten my permit when I was supposed to, I would be able to get my driver's license, but as I still have not got a permit, I cannot. And so that is irrelevant. Unfortunately. But I am still looking forward to my birthday.

AND, I get to have a birthday party this year! I suppose I could have had one last year, if I had taken the time to plan it instead of being so lazy. But this year I will have one and it will be the best.

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